My flight to California was seriously delayed due to mechanical issues
with the plane, and then my connecting flight was delayed for the same
reason. And then there was a whole lot of turbulence during the flight,
so I wrote a letter to my loved ones in case I died.
Turns out, I didn't die! But, it also turns out that my life and my loved ones are so darned awesome that it's okay if I do die. I love knowing that!
So, if ever I die, this letter is for You.
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Dear You,
Turns out, I didn't die! But, it also turns out that my life and my loved ones are so darned awesome that it's okay if I do die. I love knowing that!
So, if ever I die, this letter is for You.
* * *
Dear You,
I guess we'll be having coffee and conversation differently now. Knowing us, we'll find a way that'll be funny and uniquely ours! There's something, though, that I want to tell you now.
I’m not at all scared.
I’m in awe, amazed, confident, and curious, mostly. Sure, I’m
also sad. I will miss you in the deepest way something vital can be missed.
Something necessary and worth the possibility of losing. But we’ve missed each
other before and though I was sad then, we also discovered important gifts in
the absence. We learned and lived things we couldn’t have otherwise learned or
lived, because our separation was part of what we were learning from. So I’m
sad, but I’m comfortable with that.
Interestingly, I’m not scared. Not at all.
For me, everything of utmost importance has been done. There
is so much I still want to do, so much I still want to experience and create.
But everything that I needed to do, all the things that I had decided were the markers
of who I had to be, have been done. And you have loved me in the active way
that offers hints I did them well. Thank you!
You have the tools, talent, courage, and awareness to live
your life well and to live it your way; I know that completely. You’ve proven
it over and over and I’ve had the honor of learning from you. You’ll do ever
more amazing and unique things in the coming moments. I’m excited to watch from
the other dimension!
I’m curious, too.
We’re so valuable to and supportive of each other. It’s
given us strength and insight. I know it will be lasting, but I don’t know what
it will look like now that I’m elsewhere. My imagination can create so many
possibilities! I’m curious to see what your imagination and actions create.
But I’m not scared. Not at all.
I’m surprised. I’ve never feared dying, but, as you know,
I’ve often feared being gone from you. I felt a need to show you more, give you
more, appreciate you more. Yet I now know that we’ve given more already. And
it’s wonderful! What a stellar and wonderful life of abundance!! More has been
a delicious and nourishing gift but, like dessert, it’s not necessary.
Because of this, I’m not scared. Not even a little.
I’m aware and unworried. I know we still have hurdles,
vulnerabilities, and fears. I know we were going to do so much work together;
creating and cultivating and expanding our souls. But I’m unworried because of
the work we've already done and the supportive web we’ve weaved. Look around us!! The
pool of abilities and support is deep! We are part of that and always will be.
We’ve been invited into everything that gives us happiness and
we’ve accepted.
I’m not at all scared.
I’m amazed, grateful, curious, enlightened and deeply loved.
And, yes, I’m a little bit sad.
But I’m not scared. Not at all.
Thank you for that!
Love,
~Me
xoxo
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